…#weareheretoo

…I process things so differently

so very differently-

you see a tree-

a green or even colorful tree; if we’re gifted with the season of fall-

and i too see a tree-

a tree

a tree

a tree

but i process it as leaves against the wind, with a touch of God-

but i process it wondering who else has smiled at its beauty- the car ahead, or maybe even behind me? and what about the car behind them?

wondering which souls have ran circles around it; or sat near it with gathering thoughts or running feet, while playing with friends-

and friends

and friends

and friends

and then I wonder how many passing souls had been, or rest there now? beyond what human eyes can see- in that same space, near that same tree- the one without color because its not yet fall-

and how many more shall come to do the same- today, tomorrow, or when i am no more; and it still stands-

all those repetitive-

repetitive

repetitive

repetitive

thoughts in a matter of seconds- that last for sometimes hours, and even days-

its beautiful yet so chaotic-

because as those thoughts reside, hundreds more inquiring the next sight or moment are fighting for space also-

so then i become sad-

because its massively too much-

too much

too much

too much

and then I become sadder- because what people visually see is atypical standing female- so they never assume the mind being as viciously diseased as the mind is-

so im usually left to suffer; alone.

as millions are-

we are

we are

we are.

#autismawarenessinadults

#weareheretoo

kb