…vicious screams

…today was so hard-

and I am exhausted with an exhaustion that’s so exhausting-

im begging myself to cry it out, but I’m even too weak for that-

but these screams- these vicious vicious screams

this beautiful beautiful boy, with these vicious vicious screams-

i don’t even comb my hair anymore- ive pulled so much out- how do you feminize patches of baldness? hell im trying to survive this- remembering to shower is even a luxury- i usually baby wipe n’ go.

I haven’t even reached tomorrow, and I’m already burnt out from it-

before he slept, he placed his forehead against mine; nose to nose… and stayed there- it was so spiritual. i often wonder of the depth his young mind carries- especially in that moment- I wonder if his minds exhausted too.

today was so hard.

so hard.

but i love you,

undoubtedly-

kb