…i stared at the blank space for a while that would hold my thoughts- i knew what i wanted to express, but froze at the know how-
-today i had lunch with family- i left with very brief encounters of suicidal thoughts- i always feel so odd and misplaced when around people, even lifelong connections- i carry such a massive depth, that sometimes im the outcast- ok, almost always- and i can feel the eyes upon me- God only knows what they’re wondering-
i often wonder who will be able to openly and proudly love all that i am- depth and all- i probably need someone that can make me laugh- ive got enough seriousness for the both of us, smiling- its so lonely- so scary- so empty.
where are my depth upon great depth heavy thinkers? how do you calm it all? my beautiful escape is kdrama/cdrama- my heaven on earth- God bless the world of entertainers- thank you for the many consistent distractions- you save lives without even knowing- including mine. 🫶🏾
gnite my darlings. ✨
kb
