…com’fckn’plex

Dec 21

Written By kim brown

…love terrifies me-

i crave it profoundly-

no- obsessively…

but i fear it in the worst captivity-

am i too complex?

too odd?

lies-

ALL LIES!!-

falling words from their tongue are all fckn lies-

lustful fingertips gliding on our thighs like blue waves at the right moment-

until they swap souls with the next set-

da’ fuck?

but ain’t that too complex?

too triflin’ and odd?

i park and cry often-

preparing myself to be alone-

smiling at others who have found love and extend my blessings-

watching them will become enough; eventually-

or will it be too complex?

way too odd?

sometimes my pain affects my faith, so I don’t even pray- because im afraid no one’s listening-

or maybe my faiths being too complex?

out of line odd?

but damn, when is pain rejected?-

when does the higher power say, ‘that’s enough on this one’?

too complex?!

too odd?!

im sayin’ tho!- THIS SHIT DON’T…

-inhale/exhale-

father forgive me 😔

…writings at 9:49pm