…yolo

…i wish you could have seen the leaves being silly on the tree today-

like they were playing in the wind- a game of chase maybe-

it made my sadness smile- such a beautiful distraction-

i wanted desperately to step out of the car- to raise my arms to the freedom of swaying alongside them- I simply wanted to play too-

but what would people think- I could imagine them laughing at me- my children begging me to return to the car from utter embarrassment-

so I sat still and just watched intensely, without looking away-

im home now-

im still sad-

i wish I would’ve played with the leaves.