…skyzone

…today i watched you play-

alone as you always do-

and I followed your eyes-

and i felt their pain-

but i smiled to redirect your energy-

so you smiled back-

and at that moment,

i would’ve given anything

to make you a twin,

to give you a young sibling-

to find you a friend-

to have someone run with you-

and watch you laugh with someone,

other than the crippled

and inflamed version of me-

and at that moment, 

for that reality;

i would have sacrificed any peace left-

i would have cried double at night, 

when the home went still-

easily tripled the worries-

and pulled out more of my hair-

just to see you included-

just to follow your eyes 

and see no pain-

and I pleaded with God-

and i desperately pleaded with God.

immensely broken.

but still smiling…

but still smiling-

just for you.

my beautiful 

beautiful 

beautiful 

beautiful 

boy-

mommy loves you.

kb