…shhh

Jun 27

…no one talks about how hard it is to live-

how there’s this little voice within cheering you on, when the world feels silent-

no one talks about how excruciatingly difficult it is raising a little person while your engulfed in the worst state of depression-

worried they’ll catch it like a cold or cruel virus-

no one talks about how easy some women make it look being a woman-

how their femininity just flows against them like an addicted source of air-

I wish i could find mine-

no one talks about the unfair wonderings if God has this particular vendetta against you-

how do i find the sun the happy ones have found- how do i dance in the rain when it’s become a reminder of sadness-

and no one talks about the pulsing thoughts of suicide- why does it taunt me daily- shhh.

i crave love desperately, but how can i trust in anothers love for me, when ive yet to love myself-

tho one of my greatest fears is dying alone-

i just want to feel free-

please father,

show me how.

…packaged flawlessly