…😁

…i love God-

so why is my mind dangerously afflicted?

why are my thoughts this invaded?

why are honest poems filled with sadness- over and over and over again?

maybe i should falsify happy writings until they become happy writings- toss a happy face at the end-

😁

i love God-

so why does my mind suggest an ending daily-

why am i in combat with my own soul?

did i not pray enough?

do i not pray enough?

did i miss a sermon too many?

what did i do to possess a mind that simply envies the peace of anothers-

i love God-

so can a rub of holy oil fix me?

does the applying fingers need to belong to a specific soul?

one more sanctified than i?

why are some minds this imbalanced, while others navigate with the greatest of seemingly calm?

can a praying priest balance mines?

i love God-

i do.

i love you father.

so please…

please spare my children.

please let the lions chase only me.

😔

kb