…but everyday?
…i don’t want to be sad today-
not today-
because i was sad yesterday-
and ill probably be sad tomorrow-
ill just mask it with a smile,
like i always do-
its so exhausting-
im taking my antidepressants-
are they not working?
was i born broken?
i would give so much to feel normal-
because who actually wants to hear someone’s sad every single day?
i mean let’s be real-
and who would actually understand that?
i literally spend my days emotionally fighting to reach the next one-
making sure my voice has a happy pitch when talking to my children; when answering the phone-
my emojis are always happy or laughing faces- they always convince someone you’re ok-
my kids are safe-
shouldn’t that be enough?
i hope the monster never catches them-
what is wrong with me?
i get being sad sometimes-
but everyday?
every.
day.
why me father?-
why me?…
kb